Hi out there.
I'm Ryan the 3D Printed Aspie.
I am 32 years old.
I have been Married to my Beautiful wife Michaela for 10 Years and we have 4 Beautiful Children.
I love tinkering and building new things, I enjoy designing things and then seeing them grow from an idea into reality.
So why choose the name? 3D Printed Aspie.
All my life I picked up skills faster than most, I learned rules of games fast. I played music, sports, computer games, Skateboarding, Extreme Skating (Roller Blading on ramps), I won a Gold medal in Gymnastics as a young Child.
Sounds great right?
Well it comes at a price.
I soaked in information even if my teachers thought I wasn't paying attention. They shouted at me or kicked me out of class for talking, messing around, fidgeting or in some cases because I finished my work and looked bored.
After getting Suspended for answering back or causing a disturbance in class many times I got bored of School Life.
I became the class clown and seeing that it made people like me I used it to make friends.
I struggled keeping friends though I was always very popular mostly for the wrong reason. These friendships never lasted long so bounced around from group to group never really fitting in.
Still to this day I can pick up skills fast and can build pretty much anything that I put my mind to with the right tools and materials.
I have a BA in Computer Games Design (I was told I couldn't do it) and have worked many jobs over the years from Construction, Flooring, Shop Assistant or Warehouse Operative.
I never enjoyed any of them or felt like I belonged.
I suffered with depression and social anxiety for many of my younger years being told by Doctors that I was "Just depressed."
In December of 2007 my Wife was carrying our Second Child Maisey J
after having an accident Maisey was born prematurely and unfortunately, She wasn't strong enough to survive.
Loosing her sent me into a massive spiral of depression drinking and anger with the world making my social anxiety worse.
After 2 years of self destruction I came out of the dark place I was in and decided to do something with my life. I signed up to University and completed a 3 year course in Computer Games Design.
Earning myself a BA (Hons) Degree in Computer games Design.
Even if I never go back to do anything in the Games industry it is one of my proudest moments, a badge of Honour and a 2 fingered Salute to all the teachers and people who told me "You Can't."
After leaving Uni I worked on a few Friends Projects and tried to set up my own company but funding it was a real issue and my plans fell by the wayside I bounced around jobs again and hurt my back pretty bad.
That kept me off my feet and made me feel like I couldn't do anything. It scared me and depressed me only making my Social Anxiety worse to a point that I am on the verge of being a recluse. If not for my Children and Wife I would never leave the house.
Depression and physical injury aside It wasn't till my Children came along that I started to realise how much I was different to most. I don't mean that in an "I'm special, I'm one in a million." kind of way, I mean in a "I think and feel in a different way." to most people kind of way.
Why did my Children help me see this?
Because like me they are different.
Madison my eldest Daughter is a very bright, very kind, very innocent 11 year old girl.
She is also a Girl trying to figure out the world through her Autistic Brain.
Madison is a young girl on the Autistic Spectrum.
She has gone through a tough time in her first School struggling to make friends.
She was bullied very badly and couldn't understand why her friends wanted other friends.
Gabriel my only Son is a very clever, very kind, very trusting 7 year old boy.
He like his sister is trying to figure out the world around him with his Autistic Brain.
Gabriel is a young Boy on the Autistic Spectrum.
Gabe has different troubles to his Sister in that he is like a bottle of pop on a bumpy road.
He holds everything in till he gets to a safe place and explodes in a monumental Melt Down.
Scarlett my youngest Daughter is a very happy, very funny, very intelligent 6 year old girl.
Unlike her brother and sister Scarlett isn't trying to figure out the world with an Autistic brain. She is trying to figure how to live in an Autistic World being a relatively normal Child.
She loves Ballet dancing and everything girly. She loves making friends and being active.
After Gabriel started School he struggled on his first day in School and had a Melt Down. The School told us he wasn't ready for School and wanted him to ease into School life and be kept away from the other children till he settled down.
We changed his School after that and he Started a new School with more support and learned how to cope in School from one very amazing Teaching Assistant. He deals with School how he was taught and she developed loads of coping techniques with him.
She is no longer at the School but he still uses the help she gave him and is doing really well.
Whilst dealing with all these issues and learning more about Autism/Aspergers I noticed that I felt the way that most of the diagnosis stories I had read about felt.
I think like they think, I feel like they feel and I felt like things finally fit into place.
After a year of back and forth appointments with my Doctor and some Specialist Professors I had a Diagnosis of my own.
Aspergers Syndrome with Severe Social Anxiety Disorder.
3D Printed Aspie (Aspergers).
Since my Diagnosis I have been able to find medication that helps me to deal with the outside world better but my Aspergers still kicks me in the rear if I push to far.
I have started raising money for the National Autistic Society by taking part in Mud Runs, Assault Courses and my first Race was the 10km Chepstow Stampede on 22nd October 2016.
I came in 146 place out of 242 with a time of 1:20:49.
Another proud moment maybe next year I will have a faster time but it was my first ever Cross Country 10km Run.
I will post up how much I raised in another post once I have an actual total.
Next year I'm thinking of taking part in a few Spartan Races as well as the Chepstow Stampede and donate the proceeds to the National Autistic Society.
If you want to donate I have a GoFund me set up.
https://www.gofundme.com/StampedeForAutism
Anyway I'm going to end it here and thank you for making it this far.
You know a little more about my journey so far and I hope you will follow my journey to come.
Thank You.
3D Printed Aspie (Ryan)